This has been my first summer as a working mom. Thankfully I am working part time, so I still get to spend two weekdays with my kids. This is the first year we have a teenager who is old enough to watch her siblings as well. I can’t begin to describe how this changes life. It is so many wonderful and beautiful and hard things all at once.
I have missed the kids more than I expected to miss them. I am used to summers full of noise, arguing, dragging everyone out of the house to do something fun, leaving when “something fun” is less fun than anticipated, heading back home to let kids scurry to their own corners, arguments ceasing for a moment in time while the screens are clicked on and their minds forget about the drama of the day.
Now I sit at my quiet desk, checking in every once in a while or solving problems via text. I am thankful that I really love my job. It makes this much easier. But I still miss the freedom of lazy summer days with the kids, and I feel a bit of that mom guilt creep in when I just can’t do it all.
Are your seasons changing? Are you finding joy in a new season or fear that this season will never end? I find that my faith in God has grown deeper and deeper as He leads me through the really hard seasons and helps me find joy in the new ones. I love what Psalm 91:1 says: “He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.”
Psalm 91:1 ESV
I find myself listening to and singing a lot of worship music. That is one way I dwell with Him; I sing about who He is and remind myself daily, over and over, that I can trust in my God who never fails. I have found Him to be so faithful, so true even when I fail Him on repeat.
Whatever season you are in today, remember that He is faithful. His love for you hasn’t faded or gone away. It is as strong as ever, for you are made in His image and He loves you. Don’t let the changes that roll your way convince you of anything different.