Upside down. Inside out. Life has been crazy for a while (it was only a year ago that Matt was still recovering from sepsis and working half days). This fall as the school year started, we have kids at two schools for the first time. That was an adjustment. I thought one school sent out enough emails, but it turns out two is even more fun in my inbox.
Then I decided to teach piano lessons for the School of Arts that started at our church this month. Ten students later, and I’m managing that addition to our schedule which includes our kids’ after school schedule changing drastically.
Last month also included updating my resume (it’s been 13 years since I did that) and interviewing for a job (it’s been 20 years since I did that!). I started my new job a couple weeks ago. The changes have been monumental. Prior to these upheavals, I had committed to lead a ladies Bible study group, help with kids church on Wednesday nights again, and sing in the Christmas program in addition to the ministries I was already serving in this year.
Whew. That might help explain why I haven’t written anything here for three months! Other things are happening that I can’t quite share yet, but I can say that the future is not clear. We don’t know what God is doing in some other circumstances in our lives and how everything will shake out for our family.
I have ideas, plans, hopes, dreams for my life and my family. I have been waiting on God to open some doors that I thought were my next step, our next step, but they are still tightly shut. I don’t understand His ways, but I think that’s okay since He knows everything and can see it all from where He sits.
I don’t see clearly. I do my best to make wise decisions, to weigh the pros and cons, to do what makes the most sense. But I have such a small view of time. I have today, this moment. I know some history, and I know some of my plans for the upcoming months. But He sees it ALL. The beginning. Of all time. The end. Of things we think will never end. All dimensions, all locations, everything is in His view. I can trust that He will take care of us no matter what changes come our way.
“And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him.” Hebrews 11:6 ESV